Taylor

Ive come to realize that I’m a very loving person. without love, I’m lost. I’m just realizing this. but I’m also an ignorant teenager. I’m still learning. i got greedy and inconsiderate. I should’ve known better to consider your feelings and not have taken you for granted…

  A little over a year ago, you stole my heart and i stole yours. We awkwardly became friends, said hi and joked occasionally, and then i talked you into kissing me ;) then we had our “hotkward” moment in the hall… you were my first kiss. and i smiled for the rest of the day. we both knew what we were getting into. then at homecoming, i met Emily and Shall, and they even knew i was going to ask you out. i don’t know how you didn’t know. i practically told you before. hehe. that moment outside of the school, leaning against the handicapped sign, was the most RIGHT moment of my life. i didn’t have to think about it at all. i knew i needed you in my life. i don’t think we ever let go of each other for the rest of the night. from then on you were my baby, my honey, babe, dear, darling, my girlfriend. you told me that you cried in the car ride home because you were so happy. i wish i could’ve been there when you did. :) the entire school knew us as together. i made about 20 friend because of people you knew ;) Heidie(sp) even referred to us as Romeo and Juliet. you teared up on our date because it was so perfect. that was one of my favorite times with you. We experienced everything together. i loved just walking to the store with you, holding your hand in the car, anyway i could be close to you, i loved. Making love with you was one of the best things ive ever experienced. not the physical feeling. that means nothing. it was the connection that was made that made it unforgettable.  

Then i found out you were eventually moving away… i was destroyed… i never wanted to lose you. i thought that we were invincible. i was clearly wrong. I tried to do my best to support your decision to move earlier, but i couldn’t do much. i slipped up. i got carried away. there were times where i was mean or took things too far and I’m sorry for those times, but this mistake really took the cake. i took you for granted. i guess i got what i wanted… heh… i never wanted this. i didn’t think it through. not even a little. and i hate myself for it. i know that you’re having fun making new friends out there and working hard on the house and new school. i know i could make a second chance worth your life. id dedicate my life to moving out there with you and your family and going to college with you,  but at this distance its seems unrealistic and not very worth it, but i know it would be. i guess I’m just a dreamer. I’m trying not to beg too much, and leaving it at an apology note. So. i am deeply, honestly sorry. I’m sorry for taking you for granted. I’m sorry for making an immature choice and not thinking it through. with all of my love, I’m sorry, Marimargret.

P.S. Hows that for a sappy grade a Tumblr post ;’)